I was joining a livejournal community so that I could post a comment, and turns out I already had a livejournal account, and a journal! I guess it was my first blog. I had all but forgotten about it. If you want to see what I was doing 10+ years ago....check it out. I was always obsessing--more than I do now. The last entry mentions a "freak out" that I remember as the beginning of my tailspin into madness. I guess that's one of the reasons I stopped posting. I was too busy "freaking out."